My Story
After working in the Church for almost 20 years, I felt like a hot mess. If you'd had told me joy was possible, I would have nodded and chimed in with some quaint Bible verse affirming your words, "Yes! There is joy in the Lord!" But inside, a piece of me would have died a little more because the reality of joy seemed so far away, and your words would have filled me with further shame. Clearly I didn't love God and wasn't being pleasing to Him, because if I truly did, I'd be experiencing His joy as a good Christian and pastor's wife would. I didn't want to be ungrateful, VIEW MORE